Sunday, November 4, 2012

I guess I'll go lie down now and see if I can sleep.

:|  Not sure what else to type..

I want some rest!

I can't get it because of how tacky my parents are acting like other people, and why do you think it's tacky that that's all I could think to say?..  Why do you keep getting back at me, it seems?  What's going on?

Old Post

I noticed I can't make certain statements about Tim Burton and that he's meaner about some people than others and really gets others to get at you.  Rather, other people do that, but it's like what he does and sometimes he does it.

Why do people think we need to live by corny rules, like here in America?

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Suggestions

I'm getting suggestions from Helena Bonham Carter about people who are very mean to me not being mean enough.  Can we deny this "rumor?"

STOP

Stop being suggestive, and stop being so mean.

Upset

So, we were upset about a statement to my grandma because I was upset about the magnitude of being incessant at me when things are not hoity toity.

My Life!

My dad has been weird to me my whole life!  Since certain landmarks, things have really changed, and I think he likes it that way..

I texted my dad.

I'm very tired.

This is so annoying.  Every time my needs get compensated, something happens.  I'm worried about my parents on a walk.  They told me to calm down.  I can't stand the mental hospital and the police just won't listen to me.  How do they know I did something wrong or am not well?  What if I am forced to take medicine?  They can't force you, usually.  This isn't funny.  People will threaten to do the same thing to you.  I know I Was at the store a long time with my dad.  He was out a long time yesterday, too.  What does that imply?  He also said I don't talk to him anymore, don't eat with them, don't say good-night.

Bathroom

I found that I was supposed to go to the bathroom in school.. but I wasn't the only one.  D:  Oh no!  Only Asians and Scottish people do that.

*Beep*

I acted like I was gonna *beep* some people.  My dad acted like my daughter would be a tacky accident.

Uh oh, didn't Ellen DeGeneres channel these feelings?  I already saw a vision of my daughter, though.  Funny I lost my Wal-Mart card today, and someone picked it up.

I tried to get at my dad, but he just gets perverted and yells and me and tells me I did something wrong in telling him my feelings.

I'm worried I'll end up at the mental hospital.  I just opened the door, and they threatened to take me there.  I told my mom not to.  My dad said he might drive me there or conveniently "call the police."

My Dad

My dad acted like he wasn't as tacky at one time today!  He was rather a show off.  I didn't get it.  His motives.  I just didn't want him to hurt me.  I don't see his logic other than that it's about his failures.

HELP!

Make these noises in my room stop!  I'm not "hearing things."  I've explained my feelings.

STOP!

People want me to "admit" what's going on.

My dad's been acting funnily around me.  I'm not sure why.  However, when I do something, I get like a switch in how my parents act, as though they're someone else.  I don't know how to say it!  Every time something good happens to me or something different, they ruin my life.  I told them to stop, but they just keep killing me.

My dad has never like approached me and not had a distance, like it mattered.

They even threatened to call the police, and I'm really tired and they will just take me.  I can't sleep there.

They keep getting mad at me for not doing things a certain way from the start.  However, my life isn't set up like others's were, and I can't do just that.

I guess people went and decided to feel good and not get attention and to give me it and ruin my life at the same time.

Also, my parents decided to go for a walk for the first time with the dog.

I've been getting really inappropriate feelings from people like Ellen DeGeneres, my dad, Tim Burton, Helena Bonham Carter, Johnny Depp, just anyone.

I notice that I have to do anything that's cute, too.  Like, if I don't do it, people will act like I'm being mean because I'm not being submissive like other people my age.  They bark at me like Hell!  It's all because I thought someone wanted me to call them the n word.

So, my problem is if I call someone about my dad, they'll take me instead.  Also, I need the money and want to know why his relationship to me is given in ruined.

Also, people like Helena Bonham Carter have been testing me.  They've been like debunking my logic.

I think that some people have a fetish with me about YouTube.

Tweet @reneesmusings - Hurricane

I went up to Rochester when I was 15 with my aunt and little cousin girl.  I stayed up north there and by Pennsylvania for the whole month, on top of seeing my other friend where I used to live, maybe a month, as well.  So, I had a good time with myself when I went up north as a kid.  I saw the school of my 2nd cousin's kids, and it seemed so like real and confusing, in a way.  So, I went up north, and I went to a Bible camp.  I guess this is the first time people were really suggestive with me.  It was a Christian school.  Like, they were asking like when my school started, and I said it was starting soon.  They said they had a longer vacation.  I played games, and they seemed to think I was ugly.  I never went back up north, again.  I did go during the winter, and it was really cold, though I got over it, as I always have.  I guess I'm colder down here.  That's what my grandma said in Midnorthwestern Florida.

Also, my tennis teacher in the New Orleans area is from Rochester.  My aunt only lived there a year.  She's otherwise lived in Florida.  What sticks in my mind about him is that he said, "Play through any weather."

I think I looked at a school in that area, as well as near where my grandma lives.

Anyway, the snow isn't as thick up there, anymore, and it doesn't seem to snow as much, though there was snow in New Orleans twice in the past few years.

It's been rather nice here.  Last winter wasn't so cold.  I had a good winter before that.  I actually came out of my room and went to Disney World with my mom, and brother.

The weather in the New Orleans area always seemed so dangerous, bound to storm and hurricane.  I lost so much but gained so much from Katrina.  My life is a hurricane.  Literally.  I don't know why, but it doesn't make me happy, this secret.  When I was in the city for some event, as we never socialized, just once with my aunt, the wind blew so hard I couldn't breath, and it only affected me.  I don't remember any wind in New York|Pennsylvania.  }:)

You know, the people in New Orleans don't think the hurricane is important.

SHIT

It seems that, well, people who are not from the East nor a major area like New York nor Pennsylvania are overly protective of their basically err I shitty quality, but not shitty as in poo!  What shall I say?  Their errors.  The way they are mean and trashy-  Junk.  Because they're mean.  They're disgusting.  They aren't very attentive to thinking the right things.  They show off their every little pleasure..  However, people from the Northeast in turn are stuck up!  :0  They're shitty in culture, too.

Pre-Occuppied

If black people are so pre-occupied with being so good, how will they ever make it to the top?

I wanna talk like you talk like you oo oo oo

It seems like no one wants the Chinese to be like them?

The North + the South

Ellen DeGeneres gets mad at people for acting like they're from urban, modern, more normal places, such as Florida, Northeastern and Southeastern Florida.

What If

What if there was no hope in being good?