Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Monday, November 5, 2012
Stop
PLEASE SHUT UP ABOUT HELENA BONHAM CARTER.
DON'T ASSOCIATE THESE BAD IDEAS WITH ME. You're bringing her into the pictures as though she's also smarter than me.
DON'T ASSOCIATE THESE BAD IDEAS WITH ME. You're bringing her into the pictures as though she's also smarter than me.
Lie
I can talk about what my aunts do. What's wrong with you? My dad just said that he as the one who sent me to the mental hospital and that I was told to go there from the start of being called to the counselors office when I became more withdrawn and fatigued in high school. I was always told it was my aunt because she drove me there.
Please, stop.
Please stop associating things with me I'm gonna remember later that I don't wanna associate with and that are very bad.
Suggestions
My dad just keeps suggesting some last word to me. He really got hysteric in his message well even before Wal-Mart! He had calmed down.
Help!
I just kept exploding, cooled down sometimes, but my dad is crazy and combines ideas and feelings and acts annoyed. '}:[ Not your fault, eh? Well, you better quit being mean to me and pushing me.
He couldn't get over that I was asking him about like why he was acting mean earlier this week. He had to come home early, but it was partly because of me. My mom came home, then, too.
I wasn't like cursing at him, just like asking him if he said bullshit and stuff and then he got mad and asked like if I was testing him. How weird is that?
He couldn't get over that I was asking him about like why he was acting mean earlier this week. He had to come home early, but it was partly because of me. My mom came home, then, too.
I wasn't like cursing at him, just like asking him if he said bullshit and stuff and then he got mad and asked like if I was testing him. How weird is that?
Perverted
I took a long time in Wal-Mart. He seemed antsy about my YouTube stuff and suggested some annoying things. I just got upset. I guess he got worse and annoyed me about my daughter, and sometimes I kept at him!
Help!
I don't feel well, woke up twice.
My parents are probably gonna be mean to me. I didn't feel so attractive around them. My dad has been so mean.
They were just warming up to me. I want them to leave me alone.
I also said some things I didn't mean on eveyr level that people say sometimes, like that I wish I wasn't related to my dad.
Also, they're showing off about how they chose to treat me. They've been pressuring me, acting weird and annoying.
My parents are probably gonna be mean to me. I didn't feel so attractive around them. My dad has been so mean.
They were just warming up to me. I want them to leave me alone.
I also said some things I didn't mean on eveyr level that people say sometimes, like that I wish I wasn't related to my dad.
Also, they're showing off about how they chose to treat me. They've been pressuring me, acting weird and annoying.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
I want some rest!
I can't get it because of how tacky my parents are acting like other people, and why do you think it's tacky that that's all I could think to say?.. Why do you keep getting back at me, it seems? What's going on?
Old Post
I noticed I can't make certain statements about Tim Burton and that he's meaner about some people than others and really gets others to get at you. Rather, other people do that, but it's like what he does and sometimes he does it.
Why do people think we need to live by corny rules, like here in America?
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Why do people think we need to live by corny rules, like here in America?
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Suggestions
I'm getting suggestions from Helena Bonham Carter about people who are very mean to me not being mean enough. Can we deny this "rumor?"
Upset
So, we were upset about a statement to my grandma because I was upset about the magnitude of being incessant at me when things are not hoity toity.
My Life!
My dad has been weird to me my whole life! Since certain landmarks, things have really changed, and I think he likes it that way..
I'm very tired.
This is so annoying. Every time my needs get compensated, something happens. I'm worried about my parents on a walk. They told me to calm down. I can't stand the mental hospital and the police just won't listen to me. How do they know I did something wrong or am not well? What if I am forced to take medicine? They can't force you, usually. This isn't funny. People will threaten to do the same thing to you. I know I Was at the store a long time with my dad. He was out a long time yesterday, too. What does that imply? He also said I don't talk to him anymore, don't eat with them, don't say good-night.
Bathroom
I found that I was supposed to go to the bathroom in school.. but I wasn't the only one. D: Oh no! Only Asians and Scottish people do that.
*Beep*
I acted like I was gonna *beep* some people. My dad acted like my daughter would be a tacky accident.
Uh oh, didn't Ellen DeGeneres channel these feelings? I already saw a vision of my daughter, though. Funny I lost my Wal-Mart card today, and someone picked it up.
I tried to get at my dad, but he just gets perverted and yells and me and tells me I did something wrong in telling him my feelings.
I'm worried I'll end up at the mental hospital. I just opened the door, and they threatened to take me there. I told my mom not to. My dad said he might drive me there or conveniently "call the police."
Uh oh, didn't Ellen DeGeneres channel these feelings? I already saw a vision of my daughter, though. Funny I lost my Wal-Mart card today, and someone picked it up.
I tried to get at my dad, but he just gets perverted and yells and me and tells me I did something wrong in telling him my feelings.
I'm worried I'll end up at the mental hospital. I just opened the door, and they threatened to take me there. I told my mom not to. My dad said he might drive me there or conveniently "call the police."
My Dad
My dad acted like he wasn't as tacky at one time today! He was rather a show off. I didn't get it. His motives. I just didn't want him to hurt me. I don't see his logic other than that it's about his failures.
STOP!
People want me to "admit" what's going on.
My dad's been acting funnily around me. I'm not sure why. However, when I do something, I get like a switch in how my parents act, as though they're someone else. I don't know how to say it! Every time something good happens to me or something different, they ruin my life. I told them to stop, but they just keep killing me.
My dad has never like approached me and not had a distance, like it mattered.
They even threatened to call the police, and I'm really tired and they will just take me. I can't sleep there.
They keep getting mad at me for not doing things a certain way from the start. However, my life isn't set up like others's were, and I can't do just that.
I guess people went and decided to feel good and not get attention and to give me it and ruin my life at the same time.
Also, my parents decided to go for a walk for the first time with the dog.
I've been getting really inappropriate feelings from people like Ellen DeGeneres, my dad, Tim Burton, Helena Bonham Carter, Johnny Depp, just anyone.
I notice that I have to do anything that's cute, too. Like, if I don't do it, people will act like I'm being mean because I'm not being submissive like other people my age. They bark at me like Hell! It's all because I thought someone wanted me to call them the n word.
So, my problem is if I call someone about my dad, they'll take me instead. Also, I need the money and want to know why his relationship to me is given in ruined.
Also, people like Helena Bonham Carter have been testing me. They've been like debunking my logic.
I think that some people have a fetish with me about YouTube.
My dad's been acting funnily around me. I'm not sure why. However, when I do something, I get like a switch in how my parents act, as though they're someone else. I don't know how to say it! Every time something good happens to me or something different, they ruin my life. I told them to stop, but they just keep killing me.
My dad has never like approached me and not had a distance, like it mattered.
They even threatened to call the police, and I'm really tired and they will just take me. I can't sleep there.
They keep getting mad at me for not doing things a certain way from the start. However, my life isn't set up like others's were, and I can't do just that.
I guess people went and decided to feel good and not get attention and to give me it and ruin my life at the same time.
Also, my parents decided to go for a walk for the first time with the dog.
I've been getting really inappropriate feelings from people like Ellen DeGeneres, my dad, Tim Burton, Helena Bonham Carter, Johnny Depp, just anyone.
I notice that I have to do anything that's cute, too. Like, if I don't do it, people will act like I'm being mean because I'm not being submissive like other people my age. They bark at me like Hell! It's all because I thought someone wanted me to call them the n word.
So, my problem is if I call someone about my dad, they'll take me instead. Also, I need the money and want to know why his relationship to me is given in ruined.
Also, people like Helena Bonham Carter have been testing me. They've been like debunking my logic.
I think that some people have a fetish with me about YouTube.
Tweet @reneesmusings - Hurricane
I went up to Rochester when I was 15 with my aunt and little cousin girl. I stayed up north there and by Pennsylvania for the whole month, on top of seeing my other friend where I used to live, maybe a month, as well. So, I had a good time with myself when I went up north as a kid. I saw the school of my 2nd cousin's kids, and it seemed so like real and confusing, in a way. So, I went up north, and I went to a Bible camp. I guess this is the first time people were really suggestive with me. It was a Christian school. Like, they were asking like when my school started, and I said it was starting soon. They said they had a longer vacation. I played games, and they seemed to think I was ugly. I never went back up north, again. I did go during the winter, and it was really cold, though I got over it, as I always have. I guess I'm colder down here. That's what my grandma said in Midnorthwestern Florida.
Also, my tennis teacher in the New Orleans area is from Rochester. My aunt only lived there a year. She's otherwise lived in Florida. What sticks in my mind about him is that he said, "Play through any weather."
I think I looked at a school in that area, as well as near where my grandma lives.
Anyway, the snow isn't as thick up there, anymore, and it doesn't seem to snow as much, though there was snow in New Orleans twice in the past few years.
It's been rather nice here. Last winter wasn't so cold. I had a good winter before that. I actually came out of my room and went to Disney World with my mom, and brother.
The weather in the New Orleans area always seemed so dangerous, bound to storm and hurricane. I lost so much but gained so much from Katrina. My life is a hurricane. Literally. I don't know why, but it doesn't make me happy, this secret. When I was in the city for some event, as we never socialized, just once with my aunt, the wind blew so hard I couldn't breath, and it only affected me. I don't remember any wind in New York|Pennsylvania. }:)
You know, the people in New Orleans don't think the hurricane is important.
Also, my tennis teacher in the New Orleans area is from Rochester. My aunt only lived there a year. She's otherwise lived in Florida. What sticks in my mind about him is that he said, "Play through any weather."
I think I looked at a school in that area, as well as near where my grandma lives.
Anyway, the snow isn't as thick up there, anymore, and it doesn't seem to snow as much, though there was snow in New Orleans twice in the past few years.
It's been rather nice here. Last winter wasn't so cold. I had a good winter before that. I actually came out of my room and went to Disney World with my mom, and brother.
The weather in the New Orleans area always seemed so dangerous, bound to storm and hurricane. I lost so much but gained so much from Katrina. My life is a hurricane. Literally. I don't know why, but it doesn't make me happy, this secret. When I was in the city for some event, as we never socialized, just once with my aunt, the wind blew so hard I couldn't breath, and it only affected me. I don't remember any wind in New York|Pennsylvania. }:)
You know, the people in New Orleans don't think the hurricane is important.
SHIT
It seems that, well, people who are not from the East nor a major area like New York nor Pennsylvania are overly protective of their basically err I shitty quality, but not shitty as in poo! What shall I say? Their errors. The way they are mean and trashy- Junk. Because they're mean. They're disgusting. They aren't very attentive to thinking the right things. They show off their every little pleasure.. However, people from the Northeast in turn are stuck up! :0 They're shitty in culture, too.
Pre-Occuppied
If black people are so pre-occupied with being so good, how will they ever make it to the top?
I wanna talk like you talk like you oo oo oo
It seems like no one wants the Chinese to be like them?
The North + the South
Ellen DeGeneres gets mad at people for acting like they're from urban, modern, more normal places, such as Florida, Northeastern and Southeastern Florida.
So?
I need to put this on my site. What happened to the respect I had before things like the n word thing happened? What happened to "chances" I had?
Get Online!
Why does Ellen DeGeneres make excuses for all the things she does that are really wrong? She needs to get online.
For some reason, I can't think of it now so well. Like, she thinks everyone else is inherently stupid and she is their successful savior and hurts you. She doesn't have all the answers. She thinks life is bound to be suffering. Or maybe people who know her are overly bitter, like with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.. Who doesn't *really* know about them?
For some reason, I can't think of it now so well. Like, she thinks everyone else is inherently stupid and she is their successful savior and hurts you. She doesn't have all the answers. She thinks life is bound to be suffering. Or maybe people who know her are overly bitter, like with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.. Who doesn't *really* know about them?
Knock Knock
What if we knocked some sense into him?
He's stupid. People who are nice to me are blessed! :0 What's wrong with you, motherfucker?
He's stupid. People who are nice to me are blessed! :0 What's wrong with you, motherfucker?
Let me make you aware of the situation.
They just keep coming up with worse things along the lines of associating things with like my future husband and probably soon things more pushed in about my kids. I don't think things like this have to happen. ANSWER!
STOP!
My dad won't stop acting sorta snappish on the side to me. He keeps rubbing in things. He thinks he is justified to do this to me, and this is not done to others, in this way. He's sorta stupid and does things like a regiment, like he'll fall apart if he isn't perfect and he isn't. He gets mad at me for having an esteem and confidence. Like, things are okay, and then he changes and keeps changing.
Also, he's shit. He thinks suddenly he's all that and that I have to be as bad as him while everyone else's kids are open to opportunity. He thinks he's better than attractive guys, but to others he'll still make them feel like things are okay.
I can't stand him. I was just inquiring on him that one day. He doesn't give a shit bout me. Now, he's sorta shitting on about it, tagging onto that he doesn't want me to talk about feelings to him that aren't gay nor philosophical.
JUST STOP! I don't deserve to be treated like being punished and can't reach anyone about how I'm being affected all the time, like I can't control myself.
SOMEONE STOP HIM! He gets mad if I treat him how I do.
Also, he's shit. He thinks suddenly he's all that and that I have to be as bad as him while everyone else's kids are open to opportunity. He thinks he's better than attractive guys, but to others he'll still make them feel like things are okay.
I can't stand him. I was just inquiring on him that one day. He doesn't give a shit bout me. Now, he's sorta shitting on about it, tagging onto that he doesn't want me to talk about feelings to him that aren't gay nor philosophical.
JUST STOP! I don't deserve to be treated like being punished and can't reach anyone about how I'm being affected all the time, like I can't control myself.
SOMEONE STOP HIM! He gets mad if I treat him how I do.
A Series of Unfortunate Events
It seems unfortunate that something is okay that you do in general, and then you wreck havoc in relation to others it seems.
Eureka!
What do you think of people who had bad things happen to them spot you out and say that's it, you would have done something wrong in my situation?
The prices sky-rocketed!
I was gonna get some clothes at Sears, and the prices went up-up-up! There was this special jacket I was gonna get.
link
I was gonna get the white one. It was $11.99.
link
I was gonna get the white one. It was $11.99.
How to Succeed Without Really Trying
I couldn't succeed in school because the freshman dorm was in the only ideal location! Yes, there was this one dorm right next to it I was in, but I kept hearing strange noises. I got called down to the police but was let go. I was screaming. They came in the other dorm, too, before, the first part of my 2nd year. This was an extra hurricane semester, where I went down to the police. Actually, I was alone that semester in a 2-room dorm. :0 The next one was next to the music building on the road, nice, St. Charles road, across the park across the zoo where I'd go for exercise.. and I went home soon after.. but the building had the oldest elevator and was broke.. the Jesuits used to stay there.. I picked a dorm on the top corner by the road! :0 4 stories I think.
Something Strange
I noticed since watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I've come to juggle my egg sacks as shit after experiencing some pleasure but not strong pleasure, at all. Just a nice misty feeling in a way.
Eating Pizza
Dominos
Also, I just cleaned my room except for the floor with the money and all the messy boxes of paper and junk. I live in a garage with a cealed door.
Also, I just cleaned my room except for the floor with the money and all the messy boxes of paper and junk. I live in a garage with a cealed door.
I DEMAND YOU STOP
Please, stop the visions of my dad|older aunt torturing a boy I know and moving on to others. Do it to someone else, someone who deserves it.
What else can I say? I will have more to say.
It just isn't right, and you are aware of that. I don't know why you're so bad and bring these feelings.
Do not curse my future kids. I do not care about you.
What else can I say? I will have more to say.
It just isn't right, and you are aware of that. I don't know why you're so bad and bring these feelings.
Do not curse my future kids. I do not care about you.
Dream
The big part of my dream was sitting outside at my old school. There was one point I was walking a distance back round to the bathroom, and I noticed the cars at first were mean but then didn't keep it up and in a way I felt strong.
I was in like a blow up bed under the covers and imagined my choir director was hugging me. The difference between my dad's and mom's ages is just a little younger than her and my aunt, who is a little older but not much. However, my dad is older. Anyway, I felt totally cared for, not like weird, though I also like Ellen DeGeneres. I'm not sure what's going on... but I thought of something else...
It's interesting that happened. I noticed I'm wearing shorts and think my hips are wider unless it's also fat, wonder if that's why my butt feels stimulated.
I ran into the music teacher's daughter in the bathroom.
Also, my old boyfriend lay on me, and the girl with the white hair noticed. I had this friend in the place I lived before that. The old school was the one in the nation's oldest city, in Northeastern Florida. I was talking to the music teacher's daughter, about like I know in the end like well to someone new, an adult, about how there were lots of stalls. She was caring for me and my needs, seemed like an olde adult, someone I supposedly knew.
So, yes, I was feeling a lot with this person. It reminded me a little of my old choir director but also how Ellen DeGeneres has been acting. Also, my dad had brought reminiscence.
Other things...? I ran into my old friend. We were outside awhile. I forget what else I was gonna say.
So yea, this person had longer legs and bigger arms and a big torso. I'm not sure who it really was. It was sorta long winded. I liked wrapping my arms around this person from the side. It's something I've been dreaming and maybe thinking about as a concept.
I know I was bouncing to the theater. Also, my dad was somewhere after at like a money game machine or something like that getting money out and he was like thinking, oh my, "This isn't this." Like, I shouldn't have been in front of said person stimulated, but that I Was cuddling her was unheard of for me. I give my parents quick, brash hugs, but I used to not for some reason. I don't know why I never cuddled, but I don't know why I even can. You'd think it'd be shitty after awhile, but I guess I'm not that dilapidated, all growing up, pretty much the whole bulk after I did gymnastics, and I'm really careful yet attuned, so keen, like a dolphin's ear. It's so like specific and like hard, though, like strong, I don't mean like Tim Burton touchy feely feeling of aura around him. You know, like feeling little pieces of metal sand. Sometimes. It's not always exactly like that to light.
I was in like a blow up bed under the covers and imagined my choir director was hugging me. The difference between my dad's and mom's ages is just a little younger than her and my aunt, who is a little older but not much. However, my dad is older. Anyway, I felt totally cared for, not like weird, though I also like Ellen DeGeneres. I'm not sure what's going on... but I thought of something else...
It's interesting that happened. I noticed I'm wearing shorts and think my hips are wider unless it's also fat, wonder if that's why my butt feels stimulated.
I ran into the music teacher's daughter in the bathroom.
Also, my old boyfriend lay on me, and the girl with the white hair noticed. I had this friend in the place I lived before that. The old school was the one in the nation's oldest city, in Northeastern Florida. I was talking to the music teacher's daughter, about like I know in the end like well to someone new, an adult, about how there were lots of stalls. She was caring for me and my needs, seemed like an olde adult, someone I supposedly knew.
So, yes, I was feeling a lot with this person. It reminded me a little of my old choir director but also how Ellen DeGeneres has been acting. Also, my dad had brought reminiscence.
Other things...? I ran into my old friend. We were outside awhile. I forget what else I was gonna say.
So yea, this person had longer legs and bigger arms and a big torso. I'm not sure who it really was. It was sorta long winded. I liked wrapping my arms around this person from the side. It's something I've been dreaming and maybe thinking about as a concept.
I know I was bouncing to the theater. Also, my dad was somewhere after at like a money game machine or something like that getting money out and he was like thinking, oh my, "This isn't this." Like, I shouldn't have been in front of said person stimulated, but that I Was cuddling her was unheard of for me. I give my parents quick, brash hugs, but I used to not for some reason. I don't know why I never cuddled, but I don't know why I even can. You'd think it'd be shitty after awhile, but I guess I'm not that dilapidated, all growing up, pretty much the whole bulk after I did gymnastics, and I'm really careful yet attuned, so keen, like a dolphin's ear. It's so like specific and like hard, though, like strong, I don't mean like Tim Burton touchy feely feeling of aura around him. You know, like feeling little pieces of metal sand. Sometimes. It's not always exactly like that to light.
Dream
The most important part of my dream was at the end. I was sitting in the audience in some cheap, nice chairs. I was sitting next to Orla Fallon. We saw a redhead who looked kinda like me and noticed that the brunettes had darker skin. She crossed her leg over in front of my legs to protect me, and it felt good.. I don't remember how, but I went over and cuddld her and gave her a hug. The seats were separated. She put her arm around me, though it was discreet. Actually, I was hugging her for a long time, and it felt good.. She was a lot bigger than me and pregnant, and she is. I put my leg around her. It wasn't anything weird. I was just hugging her! I don't know why her. So, I did that for a long time. I felt good when I woke up. So, anyway, she had me lie in front of her, which is not something I would do in a more random, casual way, with anyone... I had kept being happy sorta feeling for her baby but not groping. Anyway, when I had the feeling I was lying on top of a person with a big belly ... but it didn't feel like her. It wasn't very stimulated nor anything.
I had said I wanted to go to choir so I could give my director a hug. I didn't need to give her a hug long.
I was watching a Peanuts play. I knew a Christmas song a the beginning. I was at my old school, and there was a girl there with white hair from L.A.
So, also, the person I was hugging had like a big square of number and terms and a machine around her neck keeping track of what was going on.
I was in a bathroom earlier. I didn't realize there were many stalls to wash and don't know why there was one stall of a shower to rinse off after.
I had said I wanted to go to choir so I could give my director a hug. I didn't need to give her a hug long.
I was watching a Peanuts play. I knew a Christmas song a the beginning. I was at my old school, and there was a girl there with white hair from L.A.
So, also, the person I was hugging had like a big square of number and terms and a machine around her neck keeping track of what was going on.
I was in a bathroom earlier. I didn't realize there were many stalls to wash and don't know why there was one stall of a shower to rinse off after.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
I will not take this.
I keep getting really bad suggestions. The world is so stupid. I don't know who to blame. I will not take this.
Just shut up!
I wish Ellen DeGeneres would shut up about if we should watch her show. People delight in her rudeness, like the Pied Piper of Hamlet.
Astray
Ellen DeGeneres is suggestive. She wants to think she's the center of the universe, but she went astray in her most formative years.
Just Having a Little Fun
So, is it Ellen DeGeneres's fault things are going so badly? I WANNA HAVE A LITTLE FUN.
Really, get her down.
Really, get her down.
You gotta probbob?
Why do people keep acting like I'm perverted?
Why are you overly protecting the whims of people who are like twice as old as me?
Why are you overly protecting the whims of people who are like twice as old as me?
Jeal ... o ... sy ~ that po o o o o i sons pa s sion
a a and shall be e e re no o owned for LoVe! <3
Bad things always happen. I know this one happened because of jealousy of a relationship.
Bad things always happen. I know this one happened because of jealousy of a relationship.
Wildfire
I blame my dad for making me vulnerable to feeling guilty and spreading that ooh of delight at my crime to scoff at me for thinking someone wanted me to call them the n word for fun.. Then, I went to the mental hospital. It spread like wildfire overnight. I can't believe how stupid people are. Lots of people call people the n word a lot all the time for fun and to hurt them.
Deteriorating...
Why do I always get signs that everyone knows all the points I'm gonna make, except for the ones against them? Is this some fetish over something I did wrong by accident?
It's like I've been made to not be able to come up with my own points. Should I demand that the cliquing in my room not be bad? Should I demand that the signs do not hypnotize me into deterioration?
It's like I've been made to not be able to come up with my own points. Should I demand that the cliquing in my room not be bad? Should I demand that the signs do not hypnotize me into deterioration?
Why do you have to make life so hard?
Did you notice that people are all acting like you should like have everything? Did you notice things are becoming more comfortable?
Desired High School Schedule
I was listening to my singing videos and thought of something.
Year 1
1. English II G
2. Geometry G
3. Biology I H
4. Freshman Orientation | Civics
5. PE I
6. Talented Theater I
7. Talented Art I
Year 2
1. English III APG
2. Algebra II G
3. Biology II
4. World History
5. PE II | Health
6. Talented Theater II
7. Talented Art II
Year 3
1. English IV APG
2. American History APG
3. Free Enterprise |
4. Talented Theater III
5. Talented Art III
6.
7.
After School: Singing
Exercise (Jogging & Videos)
College: Communications
Year 1
1. English II G
2. Geometry G
3. Biology I H
4. Freshman Orientation | Civics
5. PE I
6. Talented Theater I
7. Talented Art I
Year 2
1. English III APG
2. Algebra II G
3. Biology II
4. World History
5. PE II | Health
6. Talented Theater II
7. Talented Art II
Year 3
1. English IV APG
2. American History APG
3. Free Enterprise |
4. Talented Theater III
5. Talented Art III
6.
7.
After School: Singing
Exercise (Jogging & Videos)
College: Communications
Pizza Delivery
I asked my dad to get me a full order @ Domino's, with Coke, but I know most times I don't want that much, though we'll see. I didn't want any dessert at Pizza Hut, last time. I usually never get wings.
You gotta probbob?
Why do you all keep acting so assertive with me? I know why. It's because my mom is Chinese Indonesian but also because my dad is an American farmer. Boy, you just have a problem with everyone, don't you?
I'll be the judge, I'll be the jury, I'll try the whole cause...
You'll be judged, too, for what your professional statements are.
(Ah!) I just had a nice breakfast!
French toast and bacon. My mom threw out the gravy. I had to throw out my OJ! :0
It was a lifesaving experience.
So, I wonder why I had such a hard time in school.
I wonder why I even went to college. It was a lifesaving experience.
I wonder why I even went to college. It was a lifesaving experience.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Do you wanna play a game? :0
I don't really take to Ellen's games. I guess she sometimes plays and she convinces people to get mad at others and then insults you harshly, like to the death, every time, as well.
XXL-XL & XL-L
My waist went from 37" to 33" today.
I only woke up once but didn't go to the bathroom. When I woke up, I went a good amount 2 times in a row, like within what seemed like 10 to 15 minutes.
This is my first time sleeping this much since September that I remember well. I mean without waking up more than once in between to use the restroom.
Also, I'm 5'3". I've been 5'2".
I bought 2 $2 workouts at Amazon Instant Video. Abs and Upper Body. There aren't many more of those in particular. The ab one was only 10 minutes. I didn't finish the 2nd one.
I only woke up once but didn't go to the bathroom. When I woke up, I went a good amount 2 times in a row, like within what seemed like 10 to 15 minutes.
This is my first time sleeping this much since September that I remember well. I mean without waking up more than once in between to use the restroom.
Also, I'm 5'3". I've been 5'2".
I bought 2 $2 workouts at Amazon Instant Video. Abs and Upper Body. There aren't many more of those in particular. The ab one was only 10 minutes. I didn't finish the 2nd one.
I was right.
Wow, you baby me. You mess up. You tell people they don't have to be nice for me, but they weren't being nice for me. I was doing the right thing.
Stuck-Ups
What do you think of people who think they are innately skilled with others at every snap?
You did something.
Your mistake was being too cautious trying to do something bad to someone so someone bad wouldn't do it for real. You still don't really care about them.
Know-It-Alls
Do you know people who use their parents to say they're better than you without thinking, just to kid around, stuck up, think they know everything about you for some strange reason?
Stop it!
Stop just telling people they can't feel good when they figure something out, acting like it's a real feeling.
Think Think Think
What do you think of people who make themselves sit there, think, and figure things out they don't care about, while you don't seem to have the freedom to think in the best possible way you can.
There isn't any point.
I can never make a breakthrough point anymore because of the n word thing. Someone always shoves some nasty idea in my head or inflicts pain in my body.
Dream
My mom made me think I have to remember about considering modeling, like classes a few times a week.
Dream
The most prominent part was at the end sitting in a classroom at the end of the hallway. At the end, I was hanging off the rail or maybe on a ramp. It was a gathering about band. I think it was 5. My mom and grandma were there with my little brother. I said you didn't call me. I was allowed to leave. The girl in charge, who was tall, not thin, and had long, dark, slightly wavy, more slick hair said I could go. The next meeting was 7-9 on Saturday. Band would be 1-4 Monday-Thursday. After I decided, she said who wants to do flute or oboe? I said I just thought of the same thing and told her how I couldn't play oboe.
Before, I was in the classroom of a junior high English teacher. I left. There was a girl who did gymnastics then cheerleading and eventually quit gymnastics who took a Coke whe I was trying to get water. There were 3 big buttons. I saw her again later. I told someone I was the top gymnast, at 8, but I wasn't on a team. I was thinking of engulfing my English assignment.
Before, I was in the classroom of a junior high English teacher. I left. There was a girl who did gymnastics then cheerleading and eventually quit gymnastics who took a Coke whe I was trying to get water. There were 3 big buttons. I saw her again later. I told someone I was the top gymnast, at 8, but I wasn't on a team. I was thinking of engulfing my English assignment.
I don't feel well!
I don't really feel well nor like working. I should probably post on my website why I curse?
My life is ruined!
Stop ruining my life and blaming me for it. I don't care if everyone thinks this is their situation, totally.
Important Notice
My dad really doesn't like to have a discussion with me. He just explodes like an animal with confidence. It's just because he's Caucasian.
Classification of Species
Europeans
Italians & Spanish
Jewish
Middle Easterners
Indians
Islanders
Native American indians
Orientals
Italians & Spanish
Jewish
Middle Easterners
Indians
Islanders
Native American indians
Orientals
PLEASE STOP
Why is my life about my dad? Before, he gave a respectful distance yet retained a respect and sorta distant closensess. *BEEP* It's because of the n word thing or his view|opinion on it.
I keep hearing noises and getting glitches in my computer. Who would do that?
My dad's always had to keep a distance. I'd rather be with my mom in the way he tries to put his hands on me!
I keep hearing noises and getting glitches in my computer. Who would do that?
My dad's always had to keep a distance. I'd rather be with my mom in the way he tries to put his hands on me!
Negative People
Do you know people who just keep spouting negativity? I blame the jealousy of Johnny Depp.
Your Point of View
I'm a pretty mature, yet youthful young adult. You don't need to annoy me and tell me what to do. I don't agree with your views.
Civil Disagreement
If my dad keeps hurting this boy, he's just gonna have to quit getting riled up when he has a civil disagreement, at least essentially or like on the inside.
HEY!
What's going on? I thought of something when I was walking yesterday, but you don't have to go and hurt the person.
I'm in a lot of pain.
More aplogies along the way. I'm shopping for some things I need.
I have that sorta thick bloated feeling I got when I stopped moving around as much.
I have that sorta thick bloated feeling I got when I stopped moving around as much.
My Nails & My Babies
I opened new soap and it stuck under my nail. Not much at all.
Then, I took a bath and a little bug came out while I was shaving and I felt like my right egg sack with the girls died, like went out. 0:
Then, I took a bath and a little bug came out while I was shaving and I felt like my right egg sack with the girls died, like went out. 0:
Don't hurt me! Please!
You can't go around vying to just keep hurting me, just to get that effect and because I didn't sit here and comment on it.
What do I stand for?
Thinking of other people, why do they want to think they're better and rub it in as Ellen DeGeneres? What does she really stand for?
That's not good enough!
Why are people discovering you're not supposed to do good things because you're not good enough? This is not true.
I am stronger!
My thighs feel sore and tight and like mesh. I jogged a bit faster this time and then walked for a long time.
Nice Guy
At the grocery store, there was this really nice-looking guy who looked like guys born in 1960 except probably born like in 1963. He was like he was for kids who grew up with The Lion King because Ellen
DeGeneres was like that. He had a big head and was kinda like shiny. I was ready to see who was online as I trolled the store in Orlando, well, a suburb.
DeGeneres was like that. He had a big head and was kinda like shiny. I was ready to see who was online as I trolled the store in Orlando, well, a suburb.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Weak at the Knees
People from NYC are weaker than people from Florida.
I like Cleveland. I don't know why the U.S. is so big. The places in the very northeast other than Massachussetts and New Jersey seem okay, though inherently Jew Jersey was a nice place, obviously.
I like Cleveland. I don't know why the U.S. is so big. The places in the very northeast other than Massachussetts and New Jersey seem okay, though inherently Jew Jersey was a nice place, obviously.
Degradation
My aunt seems to connect ideas, in the background, after she was supposed to be nice. That's not really a nice "smart" alec thing to do.
What was important about that way of being? Ah, yes, what's your problem Ellen DeGeneres? Stop thinking these vicious thoughts. Are you jealous my dad is from New York and Pennsylvania? He and his oldest sister both lived in California, maybe near L.A., dunno, not my dad, and my dad in the most prominent city in Washington state.
What is it, Ellen? Are you mad you snapped at me because of the n word thing for having a farm family?
You all are wrong. Stop acting like everything has to be this way because of "the n word thing."
Also, someone acted like they would kill my mom just to look cool. She came home and locked herself in her bedroom until my dad came home and then made some noise in the kitchen. Also, I think she's pretty respectable and comes from a generation of prominent individuals. Need I "suggest" more? I just found that other people are ... well, not so strong|nice.
What was important about that way of being? Ah, yes, what's your problem Ellen DeGeneres? Stop thinking these vicious thoughts. Are you jealous my dad is from New York and Pennsylvania? He and his oldest sister both lived in California, maybe near L.A., dunno, not my dad, and my dad in the most prominent city in Washington state.
What is it, Ellen? Are you mad you snapped at me because of the n word thing for having a farm family?
You all are wrong. Stop acting like everything has to be this way because of "the n word thing."
Also, someone acted like they would kill my mom just to look cool. She came home and locked herself in her bedroom until my dad came home and then made some noise in the kitchen. Also, I think she's pretty respectable and comes from a generation of prominent individuals. Need I "suggest" more? I just found that other people are ... well, not so strong|nice.
How's it going?
Why can't you understand my family can't control themselves, my dad and older sister? Why did it hurt you? They care about you.
Somebody help!
These things have to come out.
I'm really mad. I think they're setting up to ruin someone I care about unbeknowistly. Because someone else suffered in my eyes.
Please don't pleasure up people in a beastly, cruel ... most importantly bad way for something good they did. Don't suggest they did something to make me feel bad. Look, I don't know "what's" really going on, but no one decided to hurt you. It was to hurt me and was just because of something I did. You would have not had this happen. I'm just worried. I don't like what I feel. I can sense also this person is really mad and affected. They shouldn't be in this shit. Just talk to me and wait if you want to talk to someone else. They just want to hurt me by not being nice to you and probably wouldn't have really met you.
Somebody help!
These things have to come out.
I'm really mad. I think they're setting up to ruin someone I care about unbeknowistly. Because someone else suffered in my eyes.
Please don't pleasure up people in a beastly, cruel ... most importantly bad way for something good they did. Don't suggest they did something to make me feel bad. Look, I don't know "what's" really going on, but no one decided to hurt you. It was to hurt me and was just because of something I did. You would have not had this happen. I'm just worried. I don't like what I feel. I can sense also this person is really mad and affected. They shouldn't be in this shit. Just talk to me and wait if you want to talk to someone else. They just want to hurt me by not being nice to you and probably wouldn't have really met you.
Georgia
My aunt had me camp out in Georgia with her in-laws. I know 3 of the most famous child|young actresses from around Atlanta and a bit elsewhere, where we camped. I realized from them they acted like they were more classical but that they "didn't need it." Well, I am very classical. I got into it with the popular old books. Before, I was more modern and didn't like dresses because I had a little brother who liked cats and pink and being very sharp, conniving, and specific. He grew up in the Northeastern part of Florida more as a young boy. Also, now, he's gone to high school here.
Curse Words, Etc.
Also, words or ideas of them are being thrown at me, these days, all around, somehow. I react with them but don't mean them and am becoming able to chose what I say.
Food
I got some raw hamburgers and found it was 45% fat. It was cheap, too, and the only one that wasn't all packaged up.
The only other meat is big fish. I finished the thin pizza.
I got tired of the beef after I had burger king. I have to find out how to shred it and make soup.
The only other meat is big fish. I finished the thin pizza.
I got tired of the beef after I had burger king. I have to find out how to shred it and make soup.
Complications
Why do some people go by "what" happens?..
Also, why ambush someone in their personal pleasures like you ruined it for someone else?
If someone insults you, you don't have to become consumed by pity and remorse and "other stuff" for yourself.
Please, leave me alone. If you want to attack people on the internet, I don't start things. However, I don't take some things, and maybe once in awhile I will talk back.
I did realize that people here weren't all from Florida and that in some ways Orlando is less competent. They're a bit unfriendly, but I know my aunts are, too.
I said I'd blog about how I felt about my dad, told him. I dunno. He's disrespectful, but I already said what I came to say.
Why should you feel like attention for what someone says to you when lots of people are actually suspeptible to it? I mean, what are you talking about? It's not nice. Why should you be like so ruined? I think some people were mean to me.
I know, on the way home, I imagined my mom in agony about "not being let to take the Hair, Skin, and Nails" pills. I thought it was cunning that she cut her thumbnail for my dad. I also think, since when my dad held me after being with my mom, that I turned tan. She tanned her skin not too too long after. I think she's not there for him. I don't know why her skin didn't seem tan before.
I was mad my mom was being rude to me. You shouldn't keep saying she's a princess over me. }:| That's sick and gay. I did admit my dad admits he's shit, but kids don't have to be like their parents. I'm the opposite of my dad in my achievement in not being disgusting. I think he admits he's shit to his mom, though, how like we don't have to like pay loads of attention to it all the time.
So, what, I can't live and have to deal with your insults for going public? But because I said something not that there's something to say.
Look, I care about your pretending to have a problem and all. Why don't you get into it? People do things automatically. They don't mean them for you from what you did. They mean them for knowing me. It's up to you not to know me.
Also, I can't make it a blast for you. I will respect you, but you have to make it a blast for yourself that you're so much better than me supposedly.
Um, why has this friend of mine been hysterical about you need to become more like your parents in a good way and if you're good and you're parents are not you have to balance it out, all these years, like at least since I dunno like 2002 or 2004.
Also, what about my talking to my dad? Didn't you get it? I was just talking. I've known people who think you're supposed to sit there and say nothing. Kids around my age. Both a little olde and younger. Well, I dunno, I think with parents of different ages.
So, why do people think Ellen DeGeneres and Madonna are "risky?" That's rather suggestive to them. They're unappealing and dirty and spoiled, but I don't mean to go out and attack Madonna herself but am generalizing from why I don't really watch Madonna like I watch Ellen DeGeneres and am thinking about Ellen DeGeneres in condoning them as a pair. So, by unappealing, I mean not perfect. I shouldn't say this! The word seemed worse for some reason when I said it. I don't mean ultimately|totally. I just mean that they do that and it's funny but kinda hurtful.
Also, there's this picture of my brother where he looks like he's at some peak of pleasure at the opposite of me, and over me with interest in me just because of his parents supposedly it's just not okay he's so thin and smooth and sunken in. I guess he doesn't seem as white yet is treated well. That's suggestive to people of minor European ethnicities in America because they get too much pleasure for it over other people.
My dad's youngest sister has 2 good pictures I know of, and they're pretty good. One is very good and detailed. Why is she treated like it's okay to be white? }:| I have one purpose in life, and I decided to do it today. It's about anyone treated better than me who's white and not disgusting. I used to not like the other one. I think they flooded. I don't want to describe them right now because I'd prefer to keep it a secret.
I posted a picture of my grandma as a kid and like her mom and the others. I lost them with my old computer.
Now, I don't know what else to say, feel kinda bad.
Oh, so what's going on with maybe this boy is bad because you wanna pleasure him up for being nice to me because he's so appealing, like in a sinful way against me? He made some wrong moves, but I believe my dad made him do it. How can you pleasure him against me for going against me? He wasn't crazy to me. Just on the message board, talked to black people and used a word I didn't look up a lot and called people retards all the time. Ugh! Why would youy do that? Why won't you listen to me? Please don't pleasure him against me for it.
Now, I don't know what else I was gonna say.
Also, my aunts are mean and so is my family and old friends. They just sit there... and wait for me to become more critical, astute, and tempered, when they're like that a lot, just because before I had more control. My aunt won't leave me alone. I'm getting messages from my dad's signs. She thinks my grandma wants her to like ruin my life with my mom. Still, obviously, I don't get the respect and fun that my other aunt got. It's because my mom is not white, but it's also because my dad's really disgusting.
Also, the friend I mentionedI talk about has parents 45 years older, the dad older, born in 1941. She's 2 months younger. I told my friend - wait she's 3 months younger? No, 2. I told the other 3 months older that she was 2 months younger and it was like "pretty good" or something. We were jogging, and I think she had like an orange soda. She used to drink Sunny Delight. My orange juice was left out thatI finally got. In my dream, with my mom, I was gonna drink it.
I can't feel like I have 2 older parents. I am upset that my dad supposedly isn't as cool, but what about how he's smart? I know it's messed up. Maybe, I'm a bit knocked out, though.
Um, I keep having to move around hearing these noises.
I feel cornered for the pile of what I've done. I explained I didn't attack anyone. You wanna really talk to me? Don't just post little comments on Twitter. Also, I can post in public, like everyone else.
Ugh! I feel a bit sick, too..
I got this perverted, useless idea that I was like shitty and pleasured for having a dad born in July 1950, well 1950 as the idea. I mean like nerdy and dumb.
I don't need to say this yet feel the need to, am pretty worked and tired from losing relaxation... I feel threatened for things I've had online that aren't on right now because I changed sites|information.
I just heard a car go by and felt stimulation sorta at the base inside my body, and I've not been. Then, my left foot jerked, like at the doctor, and then my legs warbled|trembled.
My dad is so mean ... stupid, like his parents said he said which I never said before ... because he was like looking at me like I was shit for trying to act like I was strong yet my legs trembling. He wasn't supposed to notice because he disdains it, grotesquely and lackidaisically. I don't really know how he was paying attention to it.
Also, I'm not up for listening to the stupidity of others's fathers because they are closer to my mom's age, that everything is related to hurting me because of the n word thing and weaved in and out other things and that anything good nearby the situation goes or even just anything good.
I don't think my aunt who is older should be able to make people like Ellen DeGeneres worry just for existing. She's been mean since I had different problems.
Why do people want me to just be disgusting and in pain and get mad and slow me down otherwise?
I noticed my dad didn't work for 3 years, 1 year when I was in college. I didn't like him. My aunt took me to the mental hospital, and he just came and left me. My mom didn't want to, and I don't think other people do, neither.
I'm tired of the racism of the stupidity of the Germans, how they're like pieced together retardedly like a Korean or something. I had a dream I was stimulated with Japanese. 2 thin ones. They said ... "Jap-a-nese." Like other Asians were disrespectful to us or me in particular.
Just thinking, I don't mean to curse like that boy has. Why should he be in trouble when other people do it? I don't care if he's nice, too. That just justifies it, but he's indirect with me. Lots of people are.
I don't like people from areas other than Florida who think it's cool to be mean for being mad you're not in on some situation of more flirtations and stuff. They think it's so saucy and flashy and stuff and glamorous. :| They're so that hardcore.
How is my aunt able to knock me out so and why does she do it now? My grandma has, too.
Okay, for now.
Ah yes, why pleasure this boy against me for being mean but not like disgustingly mean like really mean?
I should add some things to my website but am feeling really stressed and sore and dead.
Also, in lieu of people being intelligently, very intelligently in a way, online like this boy, no, I cannot possibly write everything I'm thinking, in sacrifice you don't do something bad, just because of the n word thing. Oh, don't be upset when I say "the n word thing." I could say the situation and see what it says on my website. Or some thing I did wrong. I probably shouldn't. I am really concerned it affects someone involved, but I won't say what it was here.
Also, why ambush someone in their personal pleasures like you ruined it for someone else?
If someone insults you, you don't have to become consumed by pity and remorse and "other stuff" for yourself.
Please, leave me alone. If you want to attack people on the internet, I don't start things. However, I don't take some things, and maybe once in awhile I will talk back.
I did realize that people here weren't all from Florida and that in some ways Orlando is less competent. They're a bit unfriendly, but I know my aunts are, too.
I said I'd blog about how I felt about my dad, told him. I dunno. He's disrespectful, but I already said what I came to say.
Why should you feel like attention for what someone says to you when lots of people are actually suspeptible to it? I mean, what are you talking about? It's not nice. Why should you be like so ruined? I think some people were mean to me.
I know, on the way home, I imagined my mom in agony about "not being let to take the Hair, Skin, and Nails" pills. I thought it was cunning that she cut her thumbnail for my dad. I also think, since when my dad held me after being with my mom, that I turned tan. She tanned her skin not too too long after. I think she's not there for him. I don't know why her skin didn't seem tan before.
I was mad my mom was being rude to me. You shouldn't keep saying she's a princess over me. }:| That's sick and gay. I did admit my dad admits he's shit, but kids don't have to be like their parents. I'm the opposite of my dad in my achievement in not being disgusting. I think he admits he's shit to his mom, though, how like we don't have to like pay loads of attention to it all the time.
So, what, I can't live and have to deal with your insults for going public? But because I said something not that there's something to say.
Look, I care about your pretending to have a problem and all. Why don't you get into it? People do things automatically. They don't mean them for you from what you did. They mean them for knowing me. It's up to you not to know me.
Also, I can't make it a blast for you. I will respect you, but you have to make it a blast for yourself that you're so much better than me supposedly.
Um, why has this friend of mine been hysterical about you need to become more like your parents in a good way and if you're good and you're parents are not you have to balance it out, all these years, like at least since I dunno like 2002 or 2004.
Also, what about my talking to my dad? Didn't you get it? I was just talking. I've known people who think you're supposed to sit there and say nothing. Kids around my age. Both a little olde and younger. Well, I dunno, I think with parents of different ages.
So, why do people think Ellen DeGeneres and Madonna are "risky?" That's rather suggestive to them. They're unappealing and dirty and spoiled, but I don't mean to go out and attack Madonna herself but am generalizing from why I don't really watch Madonna like I watch Ellen DeGeneres and am thinking about Ellen DeGeneres in condoning them as a pair. So, by unappealing, I mean not perfect. I shouldn't say this! The word seemed worse for some reason when I said it. I don't mean ultimately|totally. I just mean that they do that and it's funny but kinda hurtful.
Also, there's this picture of my brother where he looks like he's at some peak of pleasure at the opposite of me, and over me with interest in me just because of his parents supposedly it's just not okay he's so thin and smooth and sunken in. I guess he doesn't seem as white yet is treated well. That's suggestive to people of minor European ethnicities in America because they get too much pleasure for it over other people.
My dad's youngest sister has 2 good pictures I know of, and they're pretty good. One is very good and detailed. Why is she treated like it's okay to be white? }:| I have one purpose in life, and I decided to do it today. It's about anyone treated better than me who's white and not disgusting. I used to not like the other one. I think they flooded. I don't want to describe them right now because I'd prefer to keep it a secret.
I posted a picture of my grandma as a kid and like her mom and the others. I lost them with my old computer.
Now, I don't know what else to say, feel kinda bad.
Oh, so what's going on with maybe this boy is bad because you wanna pleasure him up for being nice to me because he's so appealing, like in a sinful way against me? He made some wrong moves, but I believe my dad made him do it. How can you pleasure him against me for going against me? He wasn't crazy to me. Just on the message board, talked to black people and used a word I didn't look up a lot and called people retards all the time. Ugh! Why would youy do that? Why won't you listen to me? Please don't pleasure him against me for it.
Now, I don't know what else I was gonna say.
Also, my aunts are mean and so is my family and old friends. They just sit there... and wait for me to become more critical, astute, and tempered, when they're like that a lot, just because before I had more control. My aunt won't leave me alone. I'm getting messages from my dad's signs. She thinks my grandma wants her to like ruin my life with my mom. Still, obviously, I don't get the respect and fun that my other aunt got. It's because my mom is not white, but it's also because my dad's really disgusting.
Also, the friend I mentionedI talk about has parents 45 years older, the dad older, born in 1941. She's 2 months younger. I told my friend - wait she's 3 months younger? No, 2. I told the other 3 months older that she was 2 months younger and it was like "pretty good" or something. We were jogging, and I think she had like an orange soda. She used to drink Sunny Delight. My orange juice was left out thatI finally got. In my dream, with my mom, I was gonna drink it.
I can't feel like I have 2 older parents. I am upset that my dad supposedly isn't as cool, but what about how he's smart? I know it's messed up. Maybe, I'm a bit knocked out, though.
Um, I keep having to move around hearing these noises.
I feel cornered for the pile of what I've done. I explained I didn't attack anyone. You wanna really talk to me? Don't just post little comments on Twitter. Also, I can post in public, like everyone else.
Ugh! I feel a bit sick, too..
I got this perverted, useless idea that I was like shitty and pleasured for having a dad born in July 1950, well 1950 as the idea. I mean like nerdy and dumb.
I don't need to say this yet feel the need to, am pretty worked and tired from losing relaxation... I feel threatened for things I've had online that aren't on right now because I changed sites|information.
I just heard a car go by and felt stimulation sorta at the base inside my body, and I've not been. Then, my left foot jerked, like at the doctor, and then my legs warbled|trembled.
My dad is so mean ... stupid, like his parents said he said which I never said before ... because he was like looking at me like I was shit for trying to act like I was strong yet my legs trembling. He wasn't supposed to notice because he disdains it, grotesquely and lackidaisically. I don't really know how he was paying attention to it.
Also, I'm not up for listening to the stupidity of others's fathers because they are closer to my mom's age, that everything is related to hurting me because of the n word thing and weaved in and out other things and that anything good nearby the situation goes or even just anything good.
I don't think my aunt who is older should be able to make people like Ellen DeGeneres worry just for existing. She's been mean since I had different problems.
Why do people want me to just be disgusting and in pain and get mad and slow me down otherwise?
I noticed my dad didn't work for 3 years, 1 year when I was in college. I didn't like him. My aunt took me to the mental hospital, and he just came and left me. My mom didn't want to, and I don't think other people do, neither.
I'm tired of the racism of the stupidity of the Germans, how they're like pieced together retardedly like a Korean or something. I had a dream I was stimulated with Japanese. 2 thin ones. They said ... "Jap-a-nese." Like other Asians were disrespectful to us or me in particular.
Just thinking, I don't mean to curse like that boy has. Why should he be in trouble when other people do it? I don't care if he's nice, too. That just justifies it, but he's indirect with me. Lots of people are.
I don't like people from areas other than Florida who think it's cool to be mean for being mad you're not in on some situation of more flirtations and stuff. They think it's so saucy and flashy and stuff and glamorous. :| They're so that hardcore.
How is my aunt able to knock me out so and why does she do it now? My grandma has, too.
Okay, for now.
Ah yes, why pleasure this boy against me for being mean but not like disgustingly mean like really mean?
I should add some things to my website but am feeling really stressed and sore and dead.
Also, in lieu of people being intelligently, very intelligently in a way, online like this boy, no, I cannot possibly write everything I'm thinking, in sacrifice you don't do something bad, just because of the n word thing. Oh, don't be upset when I say "the n word thing." I could say the situation and see what it says on my website. Or some thing I did wrong. I probably shouldn't. I am really concerned it affects someone involved, but I won't say what it was here.
Supposed Influence|Views
My dad has no right to explode over Ellen DeGeneres, or Jimmy Fallon ... or Tim Burton or Johnny Depp. I'm worried he will. I agree that we shouldn't just let it all out. That's gay.
MY AUNT
She thinks and my grandma's done similar things in big situations that if I am like saucy that I have to forget about something that pleasures me, but I don't quit ever feeling pleasure.
Also, I'm mad my aunts are so dynamic and cranky, pretty much, yet my dad still respects them. Look, I don't like it and think you're gonna get me to say "you're stupid" for thinking because of my race, that's settled. That's totally ridiculous. His sisters are brats, end of story, period, the end, el finale. Why should they be "allowed" to do these things? I was before I thought my life became an experiment and I came home from college. I had Fs, which are, years later, mostly Ws. I could get the rest back by grade forgiveness, taking the class over.
Also, I'm mad my aunts are so dynamic and cranky, pretty much, yet my dad still respects them. Look, I don't like it and think you're gonna get me to say "you're stupid" for thinking because of my race, that's settled. That's totally ridiculous. His sisters are brats, end of story, period, the end, el finale. Why should they be "allowed" to do these things? I was before I thought my life became an experiment and I came home from college. I had Fs, which are, years later, mostly Ws. I could get the rest back by grade forgiveness, taking the class over.
Someone still will.
I know my dad would get mad at this boy because my aunt will because my grandma will because I don't know why really, but someone still will.
Dream
It was weird. There were all these teachers, and Ellen DeGeneres was there. I kept going to a puplic viewing room to screen a 1|2 hour movie. In the end, I went back, and it was really funny, for some reason, how I acted. People were coming in. I was walking, lively and briskly around the store like my old self in some form. Ellen was there, and she was kinda noticing me. I was so elated. I said, "I have 2 frends who are pretty good at jokes..." (as in like almost practical jokes but not sick..) "but they're not my friends anymore." I don't remember quite what these jokes were, but maybe I will. I just realized how expressive they were, like her. I'm not like them in that way. So, I ran into a girl who was pretty fat and taller than me and ... oh. I met my music teacher and choir director from when I was a kid, and she was like kinda old looking but in like a smart way. She gave me a hug. I don't remember what I said. She put her hand on my butt, and it affected me, quite a bit. Then, her sister, my old piano teacher, also gave me a hug. She presented herself as interesting, but her hug was not as stimulating. She had strings of skin sticking out like me. They went in, and people in the office are a were excited. Then, someone else may have come and I noticed. There was someone who wasn't someone.. Then, it was mentioned who that person was, and this tall fat girl who came in was saying, "It's it," when she realized this person was pretty fat and big. I meandered home and it wasn't so safe and I ran into some kids going trick-or-treating, the day after Halloween. I was wearing a pumpkin costume. They noticed me. Once, there were like 6 of them in pairs, and they said there's 5 of us. It was bleak and forboding. My dad finally showed up and asked me something like about what I did at this time When I went in to see the different movies at different nights. There were staff there. I went to see them at like 1|2 hour to 12. There were young adults there, sitting, kinda relaxed, like a guy with coco skin.. My favorite part was when I went in this store with an office with Ellen DeGeneres. I was there quite awhile. I think I was imagining putting my arm around her like I hugged my music teachers. Well, I was upset when like they stopped hugging me but in a way not. I think we talked about meeing someone from another area, the 1st one. I haven't seem them since I was in junior high. The store was so bright, and I was so alive and dynamic, a way I could kinda remember, like when I lived in the area she's from. I just kept bubbling around the store. It was so bright. There was something special about the last movie, too. I guess the store scene became like you know a bit surreal. It was a little like when I lived in the nation's oldest city in Florida, Northeastern Florida. It was supposed to be impressive, my friends, who I had seen in the dream before. So, each played different things, which I think were represented by the word "jokes."
Disturbed
I have to keep checking myself for some reason. It feels weird, though. I've done things in this manner before, of course, though I don't like it though I mean sometimes is appreciable. Well, it's not that it should never happen, but I'm not that interesting.
New Videos of Me Uploading
link
I have some pictures to upload, too, but I'm a bit tired|sore now and like shutting down. That's why I had to quit school, also like no energy from interactions, which may be a good thing in my case.
I have some pictures to upload, too, but I'm a bit tired|sore now and like shutting down. That's why I had to quit school, also like no energy from interactions, which may be a good thing in my case.
My Dad and People I Care About...
I'm attuned to and care about what will happen and am apprehensive. I mean, he just didn't like me saying like why are you ... such and such. Lots of times... (I'm tired right now and am not sure if I will talk about it much later, for sure. I probably should. I'm in the process of labeling all my YouTube videos.)
What I mean be sincerely worried is he's a pub or whatever of attention for negativity and I believe that these feelings that happen are as real as the good ones you have to be respectful of. Heehee.
What I mean be sincerely worried is he's a pub or whatever of attention for negativity and I believe that these feelings that happen are as real as the good ones you have to be respectful of. Heehee.
Another Tidbit
I don't know what set me off with my dad, just said something out of place. He made me like remember something. I guess it was for my own good.
It's not really bad but may seem like a depressing suggestion. I'm not feeling anything about it but had a lot of pressure|stress around me, kinda like an explosion but not hearing nor feeling the stimulation or whatever of one.
It's not really bad but may seem like a depressing suggestion. I'm not feeling anything about it but had a lot of pressure|stress around me, kinda like an explosion but not hearing nor feeling the stimulation or whatever of one.
Disturbed & Upset & Rather Sad..
I got upset for some reason, I think though after my walk.. The clicks I had tried to avoid. I didn't really realize I was doing it. I was trying to like I guess resolve my feelings and realized later I had to like slightly for some reason in the end.
Also, I think my dad is upset about how I was upset about his youngest sister, mainly his acting like both of them how they're mean to me in private and how like they ruined things for me, partly on my website you can tell maybe. I don't mean anything bad, but we all have problems expressing ourselves..
I was upset about Ellen DeGeneres, that she got fed so much modern stuff, though she grew up apparenlty not really like sorta in a more rushed way like that before, you know? Like, now I'm crap or what? So many people think it's not important to work on their goals to be like good in the modern way. Then, adults like her and others nice like her are mean to people like me and sympathetic yet suggestive to them. I can't even like feel left alone. I keep feeling shooed away and like I don't need to be here but that I won't really be left alone.
I also got upset that maybe I wasn't welcome to watch her show in different dynamics and pretty much blew up. You can guess what happened to me.. :|
Then, I thought that like she, like others, literally thought I "copied" people and that other people didn't copy their parents. I never really clinged to my mom emotionally. She's just there. I'm just a normal person. I care about her and that we have what's important in our relationship.. She was busy with my brother, but I don't know why. It was the gymnastics that seemed to help yet hinder me...
I guess I got upset in other ways. I just didn't have the time to unravel and I guess all this time couldn't connect. I don't think I mean these thoughts the way they came. That's why I avoided them, naturally.
I also was upset that I didn't get a computer before a real, new piano, when we moved. I wish I did a blog when we got a computer when I was 11. Well, we had an old one before, since I was probably born or when I was a toddler. Wait, born. Apparently, I just had to look it up. I was worried I'd be expected to read other people's blogs. When my life became more private, I had to do something. I didn't start until months after posting on message boards. Well, maybe a year on major social networking sites or special interest forumsand IMDb.
I'm getting that feeling like I'm gonna stop, like I used to get doing my homework. Of course, it's a little different. I don't have a lot of problems, here, now, like I have more control and less stress on my eyes in the fundamental way and not often anymore, which is sad. True, it's started since watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." I guess you learn something new all the time. I was getting tired of the pressure in my eyes, too, though. I mean, it was fun. I guess I had to do something, though I didn't feel like doing it then.
Well, okay, for this post.
Also, what ... what was I thinking? Um... I was gonna explain something I posted.. I really don't know! I just am here deadbeat not feeling anything but a light weight of air and maybe like sweat and the warmth around my butt area.
Also, I think my dad is upset about how I was upset about his youngest sister, mainly his acting like both of them how they're mean to me in private and how like they ruined things for me, partly on my website you can tell maybe. I don't mean anything bad, but we all have problems expressing ourselves..
I was upset about Ellen DeGeneres, that she got fed so much modern stuff, though she grew up apparenlty not really like sorta in a more rushed way like that before, you know? Like, now I'm crap or what? So many people think it's not important to work on their goals to be like good in the modern way. Then, adults like her and others nice like her are mean to people like me and sympathetic yet suggestive to them. I can't even like feel left alone. I keep feeling shooed away and like I don't need to be here but that I won't really be left alone.
I also got upset that maybe I wasn't welcome to watch her show in different dynamics and pretty much blew up. You can guess what happened to me.. :|
Then, I thought that like she, like others, literally thought I "copied" people and that other people didn't copy their parents. I never really clinged to my mom emotionally. She's just there. I'm just a normal person. I care about her and that we have what's important in our relationship.. She was busy with my brother, but I don't know why. It was the gymnastics that seemed to help yet hinder me...
I guess I got upset in other ways. I just didn't have the time to unravel and I guess all this time couldn't connect. I don't think I mean these thoughts the way they came. That's why I avoided them, naturally.
I also was upset that I didn't get a computer before a real, new piano, when we moved. I wish I did a blog when we got a computer when I was 11. Well, we had an old one before, since I was probably born or when I was a toddler. Wait, born. Apparently, I just had to look it up. I was worried I'd be expected to read other people's blogs. When my life became more private, I had to do something. I didn't start until months after posting on message boards. Well, maybe a year on major social networking sites or special interest forumsand IMDb.
I'm getting that feeling like I'm gonna stop, like I used to get doing my homework. Of course, it's a little different. I don't have a lot of problems, here, now, like I have more control and less stress on my eyes in the fundamental way and not often anymore, which is sad. True, it's started since watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." I guess you learn something new all the time. I was getting tired of the pressure in my eyes, too, though. I mean, it was fun. I guess I had to do something, though I didn't feel like doing it then.
Well, okay, for this post.
Also, what ... what was I thinking? Um... I was gonna explain something I posted.. I really don't know! I just am here deadbeat not feeling anything but a light weight of air and maybe like sweat and the warmth around my butt area.
YouTube
I realized because of the n word thing, people are gonna be really harsh on me, though that's why I needed to get out without thinking. I was in a lot of like turmoil. Now, I'm in a lot of pain and have been under a lot of stress, you might say.
People From Rural|Urban Areas
Ellen DeGeneres is the "poster child" or poster image, pretty much, for people who grew up experiencing more feelings and stuff from the start or whatever whereas people like me from the start would experience a totally modern view of the world, flawed as it is, though the other worlds I found people here believe are wrong. They weren't supposed to kid around and be mean to us, you know? Therein lies a specific answer to our problem. So, people from other areas say they are experiencing as adults what we grew up with, like a very modern, fast-paced sentiment of the world.. kinda detailed and overwhelming because of where I'm from but not very stimulating for me really. Sure, I tried hard to like grow like I was supposed to and like if I didn't have to grow too much. So, I believe that people from areas other than Florida and California are experiencing life as it happens, like it's real, like it's more of a biological process. I guess some people are really cool. I feel Ellen DeGeneres was cooler than me, but I got cool when I quit gymnastics.
Experiment
I really preferred not to do it, pretty much, end of story. It was fun believing in things that weren't happening, that so many people around me were part of it. It would be interesting, but now I'm kinda like bland. I've gotten more bland, the more guilt I felt. I'm pretty bland, now.
For other reasons, I wanted to set up my life so it was more simple and organized. Then, you could guess what I was doing, like did I just do something different in the world around me? I also look pretty ugly and not very interesting when naked. I pray that no one I know saw me and that if for some reason they think I will commit suicide, which I do hurt myself sometimes but not anymore, I guess well I mean it's an interesting idea to think you deserve something like that to happen since people do worthless things for people. I think it isn't necessary, but people are like that. I never really look that good, my body, and my face isn't very detailed, anymore.
Also, I guess I approve of if it's just like normal people, not like you know normal people or something. I guess that like they are using it to learn about like Florida and stuff.
It would be fun to set up a camera on someone, though, just I'm kinda fat and wasted and don't particularly like "deserve" it, though I mean before it seems it would have been fun and like a like one in a like big number of chance. I already thought my life became an experiment after something. So, I wasn't under the impression I grew up with it, until I thought it was my whole life and I'd reach true glory. To elaborate, if anyone out there can't tell, I thought I was made special or something and would meet a new family and be the baby. Supposedly, I would look different soon. Remember, why not speak of it, when life was more complex??.. I worry that it's because I did bad in school and to punish people my age to not let us enjoy life for not "doing the right things," if you know what I mean..
For other reasons, I wanted to set up my life so it was more simple and organized. Then, you could guess what I was doing, like did I just do something different in the world around me? I also look pretty ugly and not very interesting when naked. I pray that no one I know saw me and that if for some reason they think I will commit suicide, which I do hurt myself sometimes but not anymore, I guess well I mean it's an interesting idea to think you deserve something like that to happen since people do worthless things for people. I think it isn't necessary, but people are like that. I never really look that good, my body, and my face isn't very detailed, anymore.
Also, I guess I approve of if it's just like normal people, not like you know normal people or something. I guess that like they are using it to learn about like Florida and stuff.
It would be fun to set up a camera on someone, though, just I'm kinda fat and wasted and don't particularly like "deserve" it, though I mean before it seems it would have been fun and like a like one in a like big number of chance. I already thought my life became an experiment after something. So, I wasn't under the impression I grew up with it, until I thought it was my whole life and I'd reach true glory. To elaborate, if anyone out there can't tell, I thought I was made special or something and would meet a new family and be the baby. Supposedly, I would look different soon. Remember, why not speak of it, when life was more complex??.. I worry that it's because I did bad in school and to punish people my age to not let us enjoy life for not "doing the right things," if you know what I mean..
Very Much in a Lot of Pain
If I went to the mental hospital and had to prop myself up on a little couch forever and then try to sleep while there's noise, including snapping binders like every 10 seconds in the office, I'd not be able to stand it, really, assuming you know something of what that feels like, though I hope you never are forced to experience it for too long.
Worried
I meant to I think talk about people I've known. I get messages that they take subtle hints. I know life is about talking about other people. It used to be you never did that, but then someone blasted out (literally) something mean about someone or did it to us behind their backs, even when they were sitting right there.
I'm worried because I was trying to become an actor so I wouldn't have to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" because I thought she was taking the liberty and sacrifice of following me online. However, I applied to every acting and modeling agency in Orlando but one I think I will make, though I have to wait 6 months if I don't make it in most places. (Ah! A car went by.) So, when I didn't go to the grocery store and stayed home and watched her show, I got fat. When I ate right again I started looking fatter. I had gotten mad on my blog that week. Also, Frankenweenie just opened, and I did have a very good time.. :| So, now, since cursing is in the air since the n word thing years ago, Dec 2009, ... what was I gonna say? Uh, yes, cursing. So, now, it's a habit. I did it in a funny way and not against anyone I don't know that well, pretty much just against my dad and sorta winged out. So, I'm mad because this season Ellen is being more risque because she needs to open up. :| You know, do her job and live .. uh .. her life? I mean, she doesn't want to submit like I've been. She wants people to open up and admit they aren't that good and won't really listen. I just feel more opened up. I know it's because of where we're from. My parents had me more closed up. I'm worried something will happen because people are going crazy and not thinking and doing the right thing. The point was I'm worried because I've mentioned people I know, not naming them all, and it's happened just so happens since watching her show again. I didn't follow her on Twitter over the summer much at all and didn't know when her show started. It didn't record when I tried a bit after it started, maybe 2 weeks into. So, I think I watch her show because I think that, other than that I want to, I really thought she followed me online and used to feel really respected, too, by people who might have read me..?
I mean, I think I was gonna talk about people I knew anyway, like I said. I do like to curse for fun.
I'm worried because I was trying to become an actor so I wouldn't have to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" because I thought she was taking the liberty and sacrifice of following me online. However, I applied to every acting and modeling agency in Orlando but one I think I will make, though I have to wait 6 months if I don't make it in most places. (Ah! A car went by.) So, when I didn't go to the grocery store and stayed home and watched her show, I got fat. When I ate right again I started looking fatter. I had gotten mad on my blog that week. Also, Frankenweenie just opened, and I did have a very good time.. :| So, now, since cursing is in the air since the n word thing years ago, Dec 2009, ... what was I gonna say? Uh, yes, cursing. So, now, it's a habit. I did it in a funny way and not against anyone I don't know that well, pretty much just against my dad and sorta winged out. So, I'm mad because this season Ellen is being more risque because she needs to open up. :| You know, do her job and live .. uh .. her life? I mean, she doesn't want to submit like I've been. She wants people to open up and admit they aren't that good and won't really listen. I just feel more opened up. I know it's because of where we're from. My parents had me more closed up. I'm worried something will happen because people are going crazy and not thinking and doing the right thing. The point was I'm worried because I've mentioned people I know, not naming them all, and it's happened just so happens since watching her show again. I didn't follow her on Twitter over the summer much at all and didn't know when her show started. It didn't record when I tried a bit after it started, maybe 2 weeks into. So, I think I watch her show because I think that, other than that I want to, I really thought she followed me online and used to feel really respected, too, by people who might have read me..?
I mean, I think I was gonna talk about people I knew anyway, like I said. I do like to curse for fun.
My Mom's Nails
I think he, under the influence or something of Tim Burton, had my mom or maybe my mom decided, too, not to take the Hair, Skin, and Nails pills we have that we were taking. I'm supposed to take them 3 times a day but only do once now. Her thumbnail is short and used to be bigger than mine, though she's a lot smaller. That made me so mad and I got mad and blamed someone and got a new blog. Then, I felt my aunt tagging me and making me mad and ruining my next 2 or 3 blogs. Now, this one has been intervened, in a way, so far.
My Dad! 0:
HE'S RACIST AGAINST ME.
He makes it seems like it's because I'm bad! 08
He's like that whenever I'm not gay!
I told him he was gay today because he thought I always had to be like happy ... and gay. Really. My mom is cool but doesn't want me mad. I don't know WTF he thinks he is.
He makes it seems like it's because I'm bad! 08
He's like that whenever I'm not gay!
I told him he was gay today because he thought I always had to be like happy ... and gay. Really. My mom is cool but doesn't want me mad. I don't know WTF he thinks he is.
Feeling Bad Like Before
I feel bad like when I was talking to my grandma. Irritated and under pressure, for no reason. Literally. :|
My daught started yelling at me and walking towards me cornering me, claiming that I was like attacking him by talking loudly, "Don't yell." I just asked about his sisters, and he was going to do something but was here awhile. I was complaining. He keeps acting like he's being mean like them. I hear noises when I'm alone, and I think he did it. However, I do believe and have heard someone talk like they were in another world, and then I started hearing noises like that.
Also, I was asking like if something was wrong or "if he had a problem." He got mad at me. He kept coming closwer and yelling but not very loudly.
I said what if I called 911. He said they'd take me away and wouldn't explain. He suggested I needed medicine or to get out, I having said I needed money and not him.. and that I was sick. I don't know why you care and that affects you, really..
Also, I'm really tired now. I have quite a lot of videos to load but not like 20. Ugh! Honestly.. I do not feel like getting up and going to the bathroom now but may.. Okay, I did but didn't know to wipe my glasses.
Ugh, my dad is so weird. I'm thinking he's like torturing this boy I know. Like in a perverted way, in a way. My parents are sick. They act nice but give subtle hints and give the sign they're white|submissve and everyone give in, immediately over me. D': I can't always have to be wary for his perverted ways. Now, his sister will know and do something that affects me, like leave "3" messages for me on my Facebook or something.. She always does that when "something" happens. I don't like how much she reacts and makes it important, like she's trying to impress her mom and take me away from my mom because it's not nice! D: She's always acted respectful, never directly told me I did anything wrong. My younger aunt did.
Also, my parents keep being mean when they don't have to be. I don't think this is right. I don't know why I'm attuned to some of this fake stuff and why no one's doing anything! Anyone out there other than my aunt or Tim Burton who has a psychology degree? *Bawk*
My daught started yelling at me and walking towards me cornering me, claiming that I was like attacking him by talking loudly, "Don't yell." I just asked about his sisters, and he was going to do something but was here awhile. I was complaining. He keeps acting like he's being mean like them. I hear noises when I'm alone, and I think he did it. However, I do believe and have heard someone talk like they were in another world, and then I started hearing noises like that.
Also, I was asking like if something was wrong or "if he had a problem." He got mad at me. He kept coming closwer and yelling but not very loudly.
I said what if I called 911. He said they'd take me away and wouldn't explain. He suggested I needed medicine or to get out, I having said I needed money and not him.. and that I was sick. I don't know why you care and that affects you, really..
Also, I'm really tired now. I have quite a lot of videos to load but not like 20. Ugh! Honestly.. I do not feel like getting up and going to the bathroom now but may.. Okay, I did but didn't know to wipe my glasses.
Ugh, my dad is so weird. I'm thinking he's like torturing this boy I know. Like in a perverted way, in a way. My parents are sick. They act nice but give subtle hints and give the sign they're white|submissve and everyone give in, immediately over me. D': I can't always have to be wary for his perverted ways. Now, his sister will know and do something that affects me, like leave "3" messages for me on my Facebook or something.. She always does that when "something" happens. I don't like how much she reacts and makes it important, like she's trying to impress her mom and take me away from my mom because it's not nice! D: She's always acted respectful, never directly told me I did anything wrong. My younger aunt did.
Also, my parents keep being mean when they don't have to be. I don't think this is right. I don't know why I'm attuned to some of this fake stuff and why no one's doing anything! Anyone out there other than my aunt or Tim Burton who has a psychology degree? *Bawk*
Ah!
I finished eating and taking a shower and am gonna see what I'm doing karaoke|dancing to, today..
It might be time for me to go to bed, soon.
I just might stay up and watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
My food is still cooking. I didn't turn on the right one.
My food is still cooking. I didn't turn on the right one.
Erased
It seems something I posted was erased.
I said I saw a guy on the way and was thinking but not really that someone was shit because ... of something that made me mad. My egg sacks aren't really letting me think.
I said I saw a guy on the way and was thinking but not really that someone was shit because ... of something that made me mad. My egg sacks aren't really letting me think.
How'd'y'do?
So, I was thinking like I was in Ireland ... of course!
So, I passed by a lady, and she seemed to say I know it's not what but insulted me.
I also saw a lady with a dark stroller and a little pug. I thought hm she has a ^real^ dog.
So, I passed by a lady, and she seemed to say I know it's not what but insulted me.
I also saw a lady with a dark stroller and a little pug. I thought hm she has a ^real^ dog.
Excuse
As I went on, people were convinced I was right because I was called a nigger and kept getting slammed.
As I passed the raker, I was thinking of this girl I saw being a fart but not really. She was at the mall, an attractive, supple, yet modern girl. Everyone reacted to her. She was hardly looking, and there was a clearing. She could tell I had a camera. She was so special, but she looked stupider than I ever did as a preteen|mature kid.
I have one purpose in life...
As I passed the raker, I was thinking of this girl I saw being a fart but not really. She was at the mall, an attractive, supple, yet modern girl. Everyone reacted to her. She was hardly looking, and there was a clearing. She could tell I had a camera. She was so special, but she looked stupider than I ever did as a preteen|mature kid.
I have one purpose in life...
My Outing
As I was taking a walk, a guy made me think of something... about America. Then, he seemed to call me a nigger. He was a little obese and weak with reddish hair, not sure if he was balding. He kinda went on. I went by making it loud and apparent but muffled that he was a nigger and something else maybe and because he kept on slammed in a way that he was shit and he acted like he just stopped like I called him a nigger online. I was sorry and realized it was because someone else called me a nigger.
I came by a fat, not short lady raking with at least 2 guys. I was thinking it was peaceful before the n word thing, and she seemed to think I was a nigger. So, on my way out a car could tell I called her bullshit for basing her life on hurting me and then finding me out and finding she was wrong.
It started out that I kinda muffled that someone was shit because I was being accused of being sheltered, but I didn't realkly mean it.
The thing the first guy said was something about *what wasn't in it* in the United States|America. I feel a block and can't remember. Oh yea, then he was acting like my daughter wouldn't be Chinese-Indonesian and that she was an Oompa Loompa. He rattled on like people do here.
I came by a fat, not short lady raking with at least 2 guys. I was thinking it was peaceful before the n word thing, and she seemed to think I was a nigger. So, on my way out a car could tell I called her bullshit for basing her life on hurting me and then finding me out and finding she was wrong.
It started out that I kinda muffled that someone was shit because I was being accused of being sheltered, but I didn't realkly mean it.
The thing the first guy said was something about *what wasn't in it* in the United States|America. I feel a block and can't remember. Oh yea, then he was acting like my daughter wouldn't be Chinese-Indonesian and that she was an Oompa Loompa. He rattled on like people do here.
Desired High School + Post High School Schedule
Private School
Year 1
1. Religion I
2. English II
3. Social Studies
4. Science
5. Math
6. Health | PE I
7. Art I
Year 2
1. Religion II
2. English III
3. Social Studies
4. Science
5. Math
6. PE II
7. Art II
Year 3
1. Religion III
2. English IV
3. Social Studies
4. Science
5. Math
6. Civics
7. Art III
Public School
Year 1
1. English II G
2. Math G
3. Freshman Orientation | Civics
4. Science
5. PE I
6. Talented Music I - Singing
7. Talented Theater I
Year 2
1. English III G
2. Math G
3. World History
4. Science
5. PE II | Health
6. Talented Music II - Singing
7. Talented Theater II
Year 3
1. English IV G
2. Math G
3. American History G
4. Science
5. Free Enterprise |
6. Talented Music III - Singing
7. Talented Theater III
After School: Work-Out DVDs, Jogging, Harp
Summer: Stay at home and post online. Visit up north some summers.
After High School: Major in Communications.
If I Ever Work: Doing laundry @ @ motel.
Year 1
1. Religion I
2. English II
3. Social Studies
4. Science
5. Math
6. Health | PE I
7. Art I
Year 2
1. Religion II
2. English III
3. Social Studies
4. Science
5. Math
6. PE II
7. Art II
Year 3
1. Religion III
2. English IV
3. Social Studies
4. Science
5. Math
6. Civics
7. Art III
Public School
Year 1
1. English II G
2. Math G
3. Freshman Orientation | Civics
4. Science
5. PE I
6. Talented Music I - Singing
7. Talented Theater I
Year 2
1. English III G
2. Math G
3. World History
4. Science
5. PE II | Health
6. Talented Music II - Singing
7. Talented Theater II
Year 3
1. English IV G
2. Math G
3. American History G
4. Science
5. Free Enterprise |
6. Talented Music III - Singing
7. Talented Theater III
After School: Work-Out DVDs, Jogging, Harp
Summer: Stay at home and post online. Visit up north some summers.
After High School: Major in Communications.
If I Ever Work: Doing laundry @ @ motel.
Website Update - My Life
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I took Risperdal. My psychiatrist lackadaisically took me off the Depression pills I was given at the mental hospital when I told him it wasn't related to schizophrenia, basically. However, I lost my female thing for a year. My dad didn't have me cut up the side effects pill, and I think it made me sick and justified me to quit taken the medicine, altogether. I've gotten bigger and lumpier since the mental hospital. I had heavier ones and then very light ones. I used to have to wear diapers when I decided to come home from college, though it was because I was kicked out of my major and couldn't stand the environment. I was thinking of not going to college because Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was coming out. In fact, I heaved upon seeing the poster my dad presented to me on the way to some big movie...
OK, so
My dad has no point.
He just wants to keep justifying things to torture you. He says you did something wrong. People like this hypnotize you to think you did something wrong because you're Chinese and not like Sundanese. Remember, people think it is impossible to hypnotize you? I'm a firm believer that that's not true.
He just wants to keep justifying things to torture you. He says you did something wrong. People like this hypnotize you to think you did something wrong because you're Chinese and not like Sundanese. Remember, people think it is impossible to hypnotize you? I'm a firm believer that that's not true.
Website Update - My Life
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When I'm in my room and in the house, I hear random clicks and other gurgling noises. For some reason, they affect me. I'm sensitive to noise. I don't know why.
When I'm in my room and in the house, I hear random clicks and other gurgling noises. For some reason, they affect me. I'm sensitive to noise. I don't know why.
Ellen's Accomplishments: Do you really -- wanna know?
She has inspired me to be more neat and clean and tidy.
She has followed suit into making social accomplishments.
She eats vegan food. However, she doesn't drink milk. I don't believe she drinks a lot of tea.
She studied Communications for a year and was a comedian, among some other things.
She lived in Texas as a teenager.
She grew up in Metarie.
She has nice hair.
Her biggest accomplishment is her appearance on the Disney ride.
Her show is her purpose.
She works hard. All the time. She goes out. But she doesn't post about it.
She has followed suit into making social accomplishments.
She eats vegan food. However, she doesn't drink milk. I don't believe she drinks a lot of tea.
She studied Communications for a year and was a comedian, among some other things.
She lived in Texas as a teenager.
She grew up in Metarie.
She has nice hair.
Her biggest accomplishment is her appearance on the Disney ride.
Her show is her purpose.
She works hard. All the time. She goes out. But she doesn't post about it.
WHAT'S THE BUZZ
Who thinks Ellen is accomplished?
Most people scoff at her for not giving more people cars, like on her show or something.
Most people scoff at her for not giving more people cars, like on her show or something.
My Posts **ON** Ellen DeGeneres
I didn't want to be gay. I wasn't feeling well. I don't want to delete it. When I delete things like that, bad things always happen. In the end, it isn't worth it. I could go back and edit it. I think Ellen would like it. It's better than how I feel about her.
I'll take care of you.
Ellen DeGeneres isn't accomplished. She criticizes the world for doing things she doesn't do and has time and well-being to do it.
"Self-Centered"
Ellen DeGeneres only cares about herself. I almost forgot she likes to give people attention when and if she finds that they are nice.
Britney Spears
So, why is Ellen DeGeneres smart to act like Britney Spears? What is her thing against Titanic?
Problem
People have such problems with my speaking patterns. I mean, I came online late. I also always had a hard time in my environment. Harder when I came home from college. Harder when I tried to go back.
Appealing to a Crowd
Why can only Europeans or Caucasians be attractive at the core when appealing to a crowd in a meager way?
The Story
So, my dad got a job in New Orleans, when the Florida bank, named Barnett Bank merged. He didn't want to get fired. He started working for Hibernia. We lived in a suburb. He got laid off when I started getting called to the counselor's office for being more retreating to myself and seeming fatigued. I think I contracted mono in college like everyone else. Also, did you know every one gets accepted to the Disney College Program? I got turned down twice. They took florist off the list when I got interviewed by a black guy at a job fair. You have to wait 6 months after being interviewed.
I'm "making a statement."
If you try to make a statement to come to a settle about what's against me, you'll get in trouble for settling down and not being riled up.
Egg Sacks
So, how can I avoid being tested all the time to a point of actual insanity? It makes my egg sacks whirl, and that's not a nice feeling. I think I've been set up. I don't know who is responsible, primarily. It also annoys me when my womb and other parts of my body sometimes swirl or feel pressure. My brother and a neighbor made my left eye whirl for months, well, the flesh surrounding it.
"I wouldn't risk it."
Call me old-fashioned, but, when something doesn't work out, I don't risk pleasure at it.
*Living in Style*
I figured out the kind of person I am is more I like to start from a German base and then go French.
Ellen DeGeneres - Mocking Bird =8
Doesn't it seem that Ellen DeGeneres likes to mock people, on the inside?
Mad!@#$%&*
I'm mad. Parts of my body have been set up to swirl, like my egg sacks. It's already stopped being so stimulated in that area.
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